As I watch my friends "succeeding" in the world, I am really proud of them. They are making a name for themselves as they work in the fields of adoption, mental health, special needs advocacy and other ventures. But more importantly, they are making a difference in the world. Lately, I am fighting the feelings of "that could be me." I start to evaluate what I am doing in this world. I am confident that there are many professional ventures that with the Lord's blessing, I could succeed in. I am trained as a therapist and in pastoral care. I think I could be successful in medicine. And my passion for those with developmental disabilities and adoption could drive me to work tirelessly for those who need a voice.
And yet, I feel called to work one on one with the kids that God has chosen to be in our family. There are days when I think that maybe I am wasting the talents that God has given me by not working out in the community. Maybe I have missed the opportunities that I have had to "succeed." Will my kids wonder why I didn't do anything with my life?
I feel fully that this is the life that God has called me to. But what if I am wrong? What if I have wasted the opportunities that He has laid out before me? I don't want that to be true. I don't think I will ever find myself in the "spotlight." I have always been a behind the scenes kind of servant. And perhaps that is my legacy...
I want to be content in all circumstances...I want my kids to see that ALL members of the Body are valued equally. Success in God's eyes simply means that we are walking the path that He has set for us. Success is found in acknowledging our weakness so that God's power can be perfected. May I never turn away from God's nudging in my life to serve...whether any one sees what I do or not.