There are times when I know that God is speaking to me loud and clear...
Today is one of those days. I have begun to feel stress in ways I have never felt before. I have seen it's effects in ways I have not experienced.
I spent a couple of days getting some photos organized and scrapbooked in preparation for the graduation celebrations in June. In October, I began the process...again spending several days on this project. Only this time, as I looked through the bins of photos that I had labeled and had in some sort of order, I could not remember anything about what I had planned to do. I remember leaving the scrapbooking retreat with a sign of relief because I had the plan in my head...I knew what needed to be done and all I had to do was finish things up.
Only I have no recollection of that plan. It is just not like me to have such big lapses in memory...red flag #1
And then, my concentration and focus just seem to be off. I am not able to follow a conversation like I used to. I am getting headaches and all of this is just not me. .
I have been an insulin diabetic for 26 years. I am a struggling to keep my blood sugars level and find myself in a fight again my own body to try and hold off the complications that come with my diabetes. I have been struggling with my insulin pump and regulating the mechanics of my insulin delivery system..and I haven't made the time to get to the doctors that I need. There is just too much at stake to let this slide.
The stress and lack of sleep is catching up with me. My body is tired. My brain is tired. I need to take a break..I just need to take a breath and not have a thing to do until I take the next breath...and repeat. For a couple of days.
Mark and I are leaving out of town for a few days. We have a small army of helpers coming in to take over while we are gone. I must let go of what will be going on while we are away...we are longing to find some rest, some quiet, some renewal for our bodies and minds. Would you pray for us as we step away from the life we love, so that we can continue to serve him with bodies renewed and refreshed...and that this may help us to develop a life plan that includes time for us to continue in this direction as we, Lord willing, face a very stressful time of our lives?